155.5 -> 153.2 Getting Back on Track

153.2 Fact:  Preston, Trempealeau County, Wisconsin has a total area of 153.2 square kilometers.

After having a check-up with my GI specialist here in Indy on Thursday, I've learned a bit more about what's going on with my stomach and consequently, possibly why I've been struggling with weight loss.  The down side is that he thinks that I'll be feeling like this for about 3-4 more months while my body resets or something like that.  It's kind of complicated...but the main thing is that I've got some problems with my stomach, and I ended up getting a severe infection, which was the acute problem that led to the discovery of what's been going on.

Anyway, I need to start taking better care of myself.  I always say that I try really hard to be good...and in some ways I do, but I know now that I just need to be more systematic about this.  So...as I've recently picked up this blogging thing pretty well...I've decided to do the unthinkable, and just be honest about the fact that I'm working on becoming a healthier me.  In all honesty...why should anyone want to hide that, right?  But there's a big part of me, and maybe it's a part of other people as well, that always wants to find a way to lose weight in secret.  I don't know exactly what it is...but it's like I want to be able to go back home from being at school and surprise people by how good I look/healthy I am.  Or come back to school from being at home and do the same thing.  I get all weird about people knowing that I'm trying to lose weight...I'd just rather have people realize that I've lost it.  But...as I've no desire to become a hermit (and even if I had this desire, I'd not be able to do it) this mindset just is not at all feasible for me.

I've had a few problems with EDs in the past...so weight loss has now become this liminal space between making sure that I'm not starving myself and starving myself...or something like that.  My apologies if this is too much information for anyone, but honestly, don't read it if you don't want to.  I don't mean that in a bad way...I'm just saying.  Besides, I don't even know if anyone's reading this.  I officially have one follower (BIG SHOUT OUT TO CARRIE!) and that's all that I know of.  Anyway...I feel like writing about it and if someone feels like reading about it then that's fine too.

Here's the bottom line (I've been stalling).  As an actor, a woman, and as myself (maybe it's just myself and not the first two) it is really hard for me to be honest about this.  But being honest about it is the plan.

At the doctor the other day, my weight was 155.5 lbs.  (That's the heaviest I've ever been...and I do not plan on being heavier [save for the possibility of pregnancy down the line, I guess].)  So...there it is...

155.5

That is officially now my starting weight.  But today, I am at 153.2!  That's a loss of 2.3 pounds (for those of you who cannot, and by cannot I of course mean prefer not, to do the math)!  Some of this may be due to a difference in scales, as 155.5 was at the doctor and 153.2 was at the HRC today.  I'm not going to worry about that though.

At the HRC today I tried rowing (1,100 meters) which I really liked doing and plan to do more of in the future.  Also I got back to my boxing a bit on the speed back and the weighted dummy trainer (That speed bag is so dang high though...what...are there no short boxers other than myself?  I think it is adjustable though...I just need to find help to figure out how to lower it.) which was nice.  I jogged for a bit (a very small bit, ha-ha), did a lot of walking, and tried spinning for a bit.  Felt pretty good about it.  Hopped on my bike...

That's right!  I got my bike out of storage today!


...and came back to the dorm.  In a bit I'm off to Walgreen's to pick up a new medication that may help some more with my stomach.  Then an entire evening of homework (definitely did not intend to sleep in today).

I'm out for now.  Peace everyone!